how one autistic boy saved his world

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Eyes of Innocence

“I wish I never had you.”

My mother said these words to me more times than I can count. 

I thought it was normal.

I learned it was not.

This is my story. 

Robert Bautner

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Coming Soon!

The Wolf Cycle

We all grew up on the story of the three little pigs where the wolf was bad and the pigs were naive victims of his power. Only one pig built a house that could withstand the wolf’s attacks. We’ve all been conditioned to think that the pig that used brick was the only one that was successful. In this 21st century update of the story, author Robert Bautner looks at the allegory with fresh eyes and insights that teach, inspire, and encourage us to be true to ourselves, build better relationships, and appreciate the challenges of the wolves in our lives. The three little pigs show us how to outsmart the wolves by understanding our personalities and making decisions within the circle of innocence. Prepare to challenge everything you thought you knew about wolves, the three pigs, and the stick, straw, and brick houses they built…and have your mind opened to new ways of living in innocence, integrity, and appreciation.

COMING FALL 2024

A Long Goodbye

A Triumphant Sequel to Stop Your Crying

For Robert, being married under God, for eternity, meant everything. That eternity was cut short. His wife began a long goodbye six years into their marriage. He saw it in her eyes, her actions, and felt it during intimacy. A silent barrage of ‘I should have never married you’ swept through him. His mother had routinely said, “I should never have had you” and now his wife, “I should never have married you.” His childhood was a long goodbye of heartaches and distress, and now so was his marriage. The memories and the emotions of both demanded to be released. Not an easy task, especially when one is autistic, where it is difficult to understand those who are not…and where it is difficult to be understood. Yet this isn’t a tale of desolation. Instead, it’s a story of transformation, a testament to the resilience of the human spirit. From the heartrending struggle to comprehend his reality, emerges an understanding of the profound tenderness of his soul. This tale exposes the delicate balance between the past and present, the pain of leaving behind and the power of moving forward. Thirty-six years later, the papers are signed, and a new chapter for Robert begins. This is that story. It is A Long Goodbye. 

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How Wisdom Makes Love Last

How Wisdom Makes Love Last

Sublime innocence is the true cornerstone of relationships...acting in sublime innocence is acting in wisdomBy Robert Bautner How can you know, I mean really know, that a prospective spouse or partner is the right one? How can you know that you’ll both be able to...

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Alabaster Cities Dimmed with Human Tears

Alabaster Cities Dimmed with Human Tears

My soul wrestled with itself, leaving me to feel uneasy about the decisions I make. What would I have done, really?By Robert Bautner Tuesday September 11th 2001. I prepared to go to work. I turned on the radio in my headset and turned on talk radio. I started my truck...

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New Years Resolutions Work This Way

New Years Resolutions Work This Way

The Catalyst No One Ever Talks About for Transforming the Mere Words of Our Decisions Into Tangible ResultsBy Robert Bautner As dusk approached, I sat comfortably in my car with my forearm resting on the armrest between the seats, waiting for the semaphore to change...

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